One thing I ask

In the summer while travelling and staying with people it seemed very difficult to maintain a pattern of personal prayer. I more or less manged to do a bit of reading and reflection in the mornings before getting out of bed, but apart from that it was mainly the beauty of nature that brought me to stillness and the appreciation of the Creator God. This has always been an important part of my view of the world and expression of faith, and of course by being on the move and spending time with family and friends you learn a great deal about them, the world and yourself.

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However, it is finally now after being back for some days and settling down again that I notice how good it is to return to the regular prayer pattern. In our times of common prayer, unless we just sit in silence for half an hour, we often sing Taizé songs and have a short reading from the Bible. I like the Celtic Daily Prayer book which gives two annual cycles of readings and meditations as well as the Northumbria Community’s liturgies for the daily office and some special services which can be done with smaller or larger groups of people in the home. In addition there is a calendar of some saints’ days and material for celebrating them. We often dip into these texts as a guide to our meditation, but the main element of the prayer is silence.

One thing I ask from the Lord,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
and to seek him in his temple.
Psalm 27:4

The psalm describes well my longing to be near God and to dedicate time to staying in his presence. This was probably the main motivation for my desire for community life and it’s important to me that the whole community gathers together and supports each other in observing the agreed times. Because without that structure, even though I long to have that prayerful time and acknowledge its importance, I would get the priorities wrong and something else would take precedence over the prayer.

In the silence I can, with the help of picking a word or two from the Bible reading, clear the worries of the day off my mind and focus on the divine qualities of God and his will for me instead. This helps me to trust him completely and abandon the situations and people of my life to his care. The way which I describe here is similar to the practice of lectio divina: please look it up if you are interested.


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It is for freedom that Christ set us free

After a long and relaxing summer holiday we are back to learning what life can be for us at the Lunesdale Community. We are still just our family of four, but butterflies flutter in my stomach when I think of the everyday adventure of life ahead this autumn and winter. I have more time to invest in this community project because I’ve reduced my working hours, Andy has big ideas about the direction his work should take in the future and the children are still finding their way in the complicated world of school, hobbies and friendships. We carry on praying together and looking after the house. Everything is well set up for a larger residential community, and we really hope that some people would move in with us soon.

On holiday I read a bit on Anthony de Mello’s thoughts in his book of meditations, The Way to Love. They touched on what has been welling up in me during the process of a change of life while setting up the Lunesdale Community.

There is a kind of freedom which enables us to see what is true and what is ultimately important. In the Bible, the psalmist writes (119:45) about the freedom which we can find when we trust and hope in God. This freedom is the opposite of slavery to lies, and when we search for wisdom we learn to use our freedom well.

What is often stopping people from breaking free from situations that enslave them or bind them is the need to conform. This comes into housing, education, careers, children’s upbringing, consumption habits and many lifestyle choices including transport. It is as if only a few options which we are fed from birth are acceptable. We are told what is the minimum we must have to be happy or to be seen as successful, or even sane.
We are fed an image, and then we struggle to keep it and live up to it.

This is a lie on the level of the society, to keep the status quo in politics and in economic growth. In this harsh world of “Have”, inequality in its many forms must be maintained. The lie can be perpetuated in the culture which glorifies individualism and instant gratification. Behind individualism, I see a lot of fear. What if I someday become dependent on others? What will people think if I can’t manage without the help of others? What if I have to let someone close and compromise? What if I can’t have my own way? What if I have to give up some of the benefits I’ve managed to secure for myself? And then softly, somewhere deep inside, the question we want to silence: What if this is all there is? What a waste of a lifetime it would be to not see for real and chase after the wrong things.

Many people become blind or at least numb to the unchanging and uncompromising values of the Kingdom of God. These are the eternal things of God, such as justice, peace and love. But there are also a growing number of people who are reacting against the indifference through grass-roots organisations. For example, the City of Sanctuary movement is organising an event with asylum seekers at the Cohousing in Halton this Saturday, which I’m looking forward to attending.

I want to speak for an alternative, counter-cultural way of life. Yes, a whole way of life. This is a changing of the heart, searching for God’s wisdom, bringing about change through personal example and by joining efforts with others and making choices whenever possible to not enslave others. I sincerely hope that the Lunesdale Community will grow to be a place where all this is possible. If you are interested, do contact us, contribute to the blog or plan a visit! We’d love to hear from you.


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Birgitta’s Taizé blog

Some reflections from the first half of Holy Week in Taizé, by Birgitta (12).

Saturday 19th March, on the ferry.
Hello! Or maybe I should say bonjour? Anyway, we are all very tired and looking forward to being able to sleep on the coach. This morning we got up at 6:00 and got into a taxi which took us to the train station in Lancaster. Then we got a train to Manchester. From there, we got the coach to Dover (picking people up on the way) and are now on the ferry. We will hopefully arrive in Taize around 6:30 in English time.

In Taize, I want to meet new people and make new friends from different countries. I think that this is my ninth time in Taize And I always love to do everything. I love the breakfast, (a roll with chocolate sticks) I love the group sessions, I love Olinda and the theatre and one thing which is very important is the prayers three times a day. I can’t wait to get there!

Sunday 20th March, in Taize(!)
We have arrived! We got here at 8 am and have eaten breakfast and been down to the source for the Palm Sunday procession. We walked up to the church singing Taize songs and there we stated the prayer. Then we had a bit of free time as there is no programme on a Sunday. We ate lunch, then went to Oyak, the Exposition shop and the old village church. We were welcomed in Olinda, which is the family area, and got our room. It is quite nice: it’s warm and has a carpeted floor. My favourite thing about it is the large window sill which I have covered with a blanket so I can use it as a seat and look out.

Monday 21st March, in evening prayer
The bells are ringing so I have only a few minutes left until the prayer starts. This morning I woke up and we went to morning prayer. We left Aidan as he was still asleep. We were supposed to be helping to distribute the breakfast but there were too many helpers already. After breakfast we went to the tent to be told our groups and the adults had a Bible introduction. While they were still in the tent we left to our different age groups. We made name tags and then played lots of fun games to get to know each other. I am the only person who lives in England although some more people may come during the week. The prayer is starting now so I will write again tomorrow.

Tuesday 22nd March, in evening prayer
I missed morning prayer today as I was tired. We were in our groups again today but seven more people had arrived since yesterday so we played another ‘name game’. After lunch we went for a walk and passed by the church in Ameugny but there was scaffolding at the front and someone was doing some work. At 4:30 we had a theatre session about Peter and the disciples after Jesus had died.

Wednesday 23rd March, in the Barn
In my group this morning we left Olinda and walked to Taize. My group’s name is Catapult. We were going to go to the Source but we had play some games before we could go down as the gate was still locked. Later on, at Oyak, I had a vanilla ice cream.

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Post Scriptum

The small provisional community has come to an end, and we all feel a little bit down; the house seems quiet and empty and the common meals and prayer times have lost the sense of… well, community. It has been a real celebration of life lived together, entrusting to each other our different personalities, sharing the joys and disappointments of the day and having interesting discussions. Beautiful singing at prayers and making music has lifted our spirits and doing housework and gardening together has been enjoyable. Our involvement in many projects in the last month has really helped put Lunesdale Community on the map. Now we are back to square one with members. :o(

musical pieceOur family felt energised when preparing for the arrival of Lisa, Milla and Elli, and we looked for opportunities to engage the local churches. A few suggestions involving Taize prayers and organising a youth evening were put to us, and when the young ladies arrived and got involved in projects, some more activities came up. All this meant that the four weeks of small provisional community became quite a busy time. How I wish that I could also have spent my days volunteering, organising prayers and building networks with new people and organisations.

In normal life it is not feasible to maintain such a busy schedule. If we are to offer a regular open evening prayer, we need to be home in the evenings, even if there are other interesting events happening. It became evident how important it is to practise being present and available to each other and also make time separately for family relationships and self. Too many activities and extra guests in the long run would inevitably mean ignoring some basic aspects of community life and my personal needs, just because there are only 24 hours in the day. There are choices to be made constantly – what should decisions be based on? I’ll touch on that in my next post.

dinner preparationEven though I kept going to work during the day, anticipating the evenings and weekends brought me a new kind of joy. It was wonderful to come home to friends. I noticed that in the presence of others I wanted to make a special effort to do my part properly with care, whether it was preparing a beautiful chapel or table, making a meal or being on time for prayer. I wanted to take the whole community into consideration when planning my time. I am satisfied that when I made more of an effort, I also got more out of everything. For example, with proper internal and external preparation, times of prayer can be more fruitful. I am very happy and grateful for this community experience, and so glad that I had the chance to get to know Milla, Elli and Lisa! They are amazing!


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Let’s look back together…

After we had our last day in the foodbank on Friday we are slowly realising that we will actually leave this place! We are spending our last hours together, thinking and talking about our experiences and trying to find out what we enjoyed most. The time here in England was very special for all of us and for sure we will think of it long after we left. About all the wonderful people we met here, about all the interesting things we learned and about what it really means to live in community.

Living together with others strengthens your ability to not only look at your own needs and problems but to care about your neighbour and to look at them, not with our limited human sight but more as God looks at them. Even though it’s not always easy it is definitely worth a try to share daily life and to live in communion.

Especially to prepare and plan all the prayers was challenging, but at the same time very great. We kept the pattern of praying three times a day outside of Taizé and had prayers at various places, no matter how suitable they were. We learned how to prepare a prayer, how to structure it and how to divide organisation time and praying time. Now we are perfectly prepared to continue praying at home 😉

To live in the Lunesdale Community was an enriching experience and we hope to come back one day!

We will miss our English/Finish Family and all the great people we met here.

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Elli, Camilla and Lisa



PS: For everybody who thinks about volunteering in a local project… do it!

Just get informed and see what fits you. There are so many amazing projects and the people you meet are just lovely.

“There is more happiness in giving than there is in receiving” ACTS 20:35

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Time tooooo say goooooodbye

The last week of our community has come. Even though these are still seven days of volunteering, prayer and new experiences there were already some goodbyes. On Tuesday we worked for the last time together with those volunteers of the Morecambe Foodbank who are only there once a week. ChaplaincyNext day we had the last midday prayer and soup lunch in the Chaplaincy of Lancaster University. The prayer and the bible study after the meal were both very rich in spirituality. However it is always hard to say goodbye to amazing people who inspired you and gave you the strong feeling of being welcome.

It is kind of the same feeling as the one I had when I finished my time as volunteer in Taizé after five month. You have to say bye for quite a long time to people of whom you think you will never meet such great personalities again. What the future holds seems quiet unclear at the same moment. What’s going to happen? Will I manage my studies? Is everything going to work out with the money? Will I find friends in the new place? My experiences actually taught me that there is no need to worry. In almost every new part of our life there are incredible people who laugh with and help you in your difficulties. But still …Flag this tiny little strange feeling in my stomach stays. In prayer I can sometimes find rest of this. It helps me to entrust myself again to God who is a God of peace.

Fortunately Wednesday was not only about goodbye, but also about seeing old friends. We went to a Taizé meeting in Manchester and met Daniela and Chrissi with whom we lived together in Taizé for some month as volunteers. They have been sent to the UK for talking about Taizé and encouraging young people to take this pilgrimage to France. What can I say about this reunion? It was joy! Pure joy of seeing close friends.

Unfortunately we missed our train afterwards and so it took pretty much time to find the next connection and get home … Probably God is not a God of chaos, but we are sometimes humans of chaos.

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Next goodbye was today. It was the last time for us to work on the Claver Hill with Joy, our guide of gardening 😉 Being thankful that she welcomed us so warmly in her project we ended up in trying to make a fire. That was … more or less successful. What remains are memories of nice weeding, digging, midday prayers in a polytunnel and of course the idea of having a true connection to what you eat.

This is so far what there is to say about the last days. Enjoy these beautiful first days of spring!

-Elli-Spring in Halton

‘For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for peace and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.’ Jeremiah 29, 11

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Expectations vs. Reality

Hey everybody! 🙂

IMG-20160307-WA0001(Four sisters waiting for their               parents after church 😛 )





On Friday we helped in the Food Bank in Morecambe and it was still a pleasure for us to join the group of helpers who are already familiar faces and we know how the land lies. In the evening we went all together (also with our host family) to Bolton for a Taizé Prayer.

Yes, Weekend! 🙂

That means late breakfasts, discovering our surroundings, visiting different churches and watching movies in the evening. On Saturday the three of us went to Lancaster for eating the traditional english food ‘fish & chips’ – it wasn’t how we expected, but we didn’t take it as a ‘take away’ and Andrew explained us later that this is an absolut must.IMG-20160307-WA0011






Afterwards we visited the Lancaster City Museum & The King’s own Royal Regiment Museum. We discovered more about Lancasters past from the Romans to the present day and traced the pedigree of Lancaster’s regiment from 1680 onwards.








After we had a look at the famous Castle, we discovered behind it the Church Priory – really impressive buildings.










It’s the fourth sunday of Lent and exactly three weeks before Easter Sunday, that means it’s Mothering Sunday in the Uk. Originally it was a time when people returned to the church, in which they were baptized or where they attended services when they were children. This meant that families were reunited as adults returned to the towns where they grew up. It’s now an occasion to bring gifts to your mother and other mother figures, such as grandmothers and stepmothers. After a substantial breakfast we went to St Wilfrid’s Church in Halton for sunday service.

Do you know all the pictures on the Internet: ‘Expectations vs. Reality’ ?IMG-20160307-WA0000 I could draw such a picture for telling the story of our sunday evening.

Expectations: We go to the evening service at 7.30 pm at the Chaplaincy  in the Lancaster University.

Reality: We missed our regular bus and had to take the bus one hour later, but it was still possible to arrive in time. Our bus was ten minutes too late, but that was not the problem… when we finally arrived, we realized that the service started already at 7 pm, so we were 40 minutes too late                                            – what a pity 🙁                                                                                                                     Nevertheless we were invited for tea and cake afterwards. It was not like expected, but we had a funny evening with beautiful conversations and a delicious cake.

And now it’s already monday morning and I think: ‘Can we start the weekend over again? I wasn’t ready.’ 😛

Milla 🙂

‘The hope of the righteous shall be gladness: but the expectation of the wicked shall perish’ Provebs 10,28

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About egg plants and prayers ;)

Good morning 🙂

Puuh… the last days were so busy, I don’t even know where to start!

On Monday we had our first real work day at the Claver Hill gardening project. It was really cold and windy up there and after a few minutes my hands felt like they were frozen. But it was also a lot of fun to plant for example the poached egg plant 🙂 It really felt like making a difference and bringing life to the place where we planted them



After our midday prayer at the Cornerstone we went home quickly to change (our feet got wet and our clothes were full of mud and dirt!).Preston Then we took the train to Preston and once we arrived, we were trying to find the St. Wilfred’s Church where we should have our evening prayer. The prayer was amazing… there were several musicians playing the piano, the guitar and even the harp. The acoustic in the church was really nice and thanks to some red and orange candle glasses the Taizé atmosphere was perfect.


The next day we had to get up early again to go to the Morecambe Foodbank. As we have already worked there some times, we are familiar with the tasks and helped as usually with dating the food donations and serving coffee and tea.

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In the evening we had our prayer again away from home. This time we visited the Methodist Church of Lancaster to have prayer in community with local people. Methodist ChurchWe also had a short interview and answered questions about our time in Taizé and our life in community. It was great to share some experiences and to talk about things that are important to us. One specific topic was, that in community you have to be able to accept that there are times you won’t agree or you need time on your own. Living in community means to forgive each others faults, to learn to do things in different ways than you are used to and to share your life with others. It is not always easy but it is worth it, because there are some things that only become better when you share them like faith and joy and love!

On Wednesday we went to the soup lunch at the University Chaplaincy. Before lunch we had midday prayer together with Kevin and Luke. That was great because then we had all the different voices. Lunch was really nice, the soup was delicious and the cake and browines even more 🙂 And also the bible study afterwards was very interesting. We talked about reconciliation and heard many inspiring stories! For me reconciliation is very important when talking about peace. I think without reconciliation and the ability to forgive and move on, there can’t be real peace. We came to the conclusion that we have to overcome our human boundaries and try to see each other with God’s eyes.


Yesterday we had an amazing evening!UNICEF

We went to a charity event from UNICEF, where they did a Talent Show. The life music was great and the artistic performances really impressive. It was nice to do a ‘free time activity’ after all the organizing and preparing.


Have a nice day and maybe enjoy some sunshine!


‘He came to bring the good news of peace to you who were far off and peace to those who were near’ Ephesians 2, 17

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A weekend full of adventures :)


Huhu, how are you? We are really fine 🙂

I want to tell you something about our second weekend here in Halton! On Saturday we took a day trip to Windermere, it’s England’s largest lake, in the heart of the Lake District.



It was quite an adventure – we cut across the fields, got over fences and jumped over undergrowth, just to go along the lake, because of course it’s too boring for us German girls to go next to the road. 😛  Our efforts were worth it – the views of mountain scenery, wooded spaces and over the lake were amazing and we enjoyed this wonderful time in the nature.IMG-20160229-WA0001

On Sunday we went for the mass to the Cathedral Church of St Peter, which already impressed us when we had been there just for visiting. In the afternoon six girls (12-15years old) arrived from the YRC in Halton. We watched the ‘Life at Taizé’ video – we were really touched and had immediately in our mind ‘We have to go there… right now!’ and wallowed in memories. After dinner we had a discussion about trust. Whom we trust the most? What is trust for us? Can we trust everybody? There is no exact definition of trust and everyone has their own associations. In my opinion the most important thing is trusting to your family and friends. But what’s about God? He invites us to be part of a huge trusting world. He will reach out to each of us! ‘Christ of compassion. Lord God, I trust you.’ (In te confido, Taizé)

Camilla 🙂

P.S. Greeting to my graceful family and all of my lovely friends, thank you for our open and trusting relation.

‘But I trust your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.’ Psalm 13,5

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Why are potatoes green?

Some of you might know the answer to the question above. However, I didn’t when Joy, the founder of the Claver Hill asked us while looking at her huge garden. We met her on Wednesday morning for visiting the place where we are going to volunteer on Mondays and Thursdays. What we saw and what she told us was incredibly inspiring. She had put everything she had into a piece of land to make hA place for growing all kinds of vegetables er vision of garden that is planted by everybody who wishes to help come true. In exchange for this the people learn how to plant vegetables, fruit trees and flowers and they can take things home for free. The rest is sold for covering the costs of the project.

As we live in a world where many people are separated from the production of what they eat, this idea of a community garden holds firm to older traditions of being able to care for your own food. And this might be important for the future.Treasure from Trash

Treasure from Trash In one part of her garden Joy has started something she calls ‘Treasure from Trash’. What you can see there is lots of old stuff like washing up sinks, buckets, bottles and many more. All these things have been given a new meaning by planting mainly herbs in it. It reminded me a bit of the place Wanagi Tacanku in Taizé which was open last summer 🙂 Places for re – and upcycling are just amazing!

When we were talking to Joy I realized that there was a lot to learn for me and that this volunteering will be one of the most fruitful works I ever did. Even though I grew up in a small village where we had a garden with carrots, potatoes and many other things, there are many things I need and want to understand about planting. Luckily the three of us get the chance here in Lancaster.

By the way: Potatoes turn green when they get too much light 😉In winter things can still grow in the two polytunnels

As the idea of sowing and harvesting has existed for thousands of years, I hope that the work on the Claver Hill might draw us near to the routes of our food and our life.


‘Sow to yourselves in righteousness, reap in mercy; break up your fallow ground: for it is time to seek the LORD, till he come and rain righteousness upon you.’ Hosea 10:12

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